It was awesome talking to Leah - same as usual. Caught up on a bunch of things that had happened, some of it pretty intense. She reassured and boosted my morale by what she said, making me feel better about the situation that I am in, and reminding me once again of how everything was slowly getting better, and how much better my life is now compared to last year.
My drive since the beginning of last year has pretty much always been for only one reason, but I do realize by this point that my own life holds some importance as well - decidedly more so than I ever thought it did in the past. Leah has helped me to come to terms with the fact that this fight is not only worth winning for the sake of the person that I am fighting for - but for my own survival and well-being also. I appreciate all of her counseling immensely. I have learned more in this last year than I think I have learned in all my life before 2018 - I have gained so much knowledge and gotten over so much mentally and emotionally - but my talk with Leah today showed me that I still have a long way to go in getting over my past, my upbringing and my damaging childhood. I yearn and I long for this period of my life to be finally over, but I cannot truly say that I am ungrateful for what I have learned in being forced to have to undergo the ordeals of the past year - I am glad for everything I know, and everything that Leah is always willing to teach me. If everybody knew what Leah knows the world would be a completely different place.